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          ☑ Chemotherapy
          ☑ Surgery
          ☑ Radiation
          Maintenance Therapy
                     ☑  Herceptin
                     ☐  Anti-Hormonal Treatment

January 30, 2012

Celebrations!

We celebrated our friends Michelle and Sachi's wedding on Saturday. Michelle has been a great friend all through my cancer journey and I am happy to have the honor to share one of the happiest days of her life. It is good to laugh and be happy together too! I wish Michelle and Sachi a very happy married life.

On a personal note, it felt good to wear a sari and be surrounded by people I love. It also felt good to have one too many cosmos after a long time and dance my feet off! :)
You live just once. Make it memorable!
Love Always
Bela

January 13, 2012

Two Damn Years

Two years back on this day in January, the breast surgeon called me and I heard the three words that changed my life forever. These two years have been physically, mentally, and emotionally very hard for me and my loved ones. I struggle even today to adjust to all the changes that this disease has brought in my life. Two years back I started redefining my life. I decided to live with more purpose and happiness, to include the ones who matter, and leave behind the ones who bring you down.
Today I am happy, healthy, and strong. Today I am a fighter and will always remain for the rest of my life. I would not change the past and I cannot control the future, but I am trying to make the most of today.
I love each one of you who have loved me, cared for me, and supported me. I would not be here today without any of you, especially without my family, my mother and my husband. My mother has had to bathe me, dress me, pat me to sleep all over again at the age of 34 and she has done that unflinchingly. I would do the same for my child always. I learn how to be a mother from my mother, and I hope I can be half as good as her some day.
My husband is another story. He is made of rock and steel from the outside. It is hard to break him down and open him up, but he has been through so much as a co-survivor, often not getting the support that I got. I always looked at him with "why? why me?" and he would say "I dont know but we will get through this". I love my rock, sometimes I wished he had a crater in the middle that would open up a bit so that this would be a bit easier for him.
My brother and my sister-in-law have been our pillars of support, loving uncle and aunt to Sahil. I didnt have to think about a babysitter even once in these 2 years, be it my treatment or recovery. I cant imagine what we would have done, how we would have coped, had they not moved closer to us.
We all made it through 2 years and I hope the scars that are left behind lighten, and we slowly forget the details from these two gruelling years of our lives.
Medical update: We met with my oncologist on Jan 13th and she said that her shoulders have dropped a little now that I have reached the 2 year mark cancer free. She told us to go and celebrate and we said we didnt want to celebrate and jinx anything. I also got  my second Zometa infusion after my veins being shot 3 times to start an IV!! I didnt have any reaction for 36 hours and then the aches hit my bones. Oh well just 2 more to go and I get a break as it is every 6 months.
Truly live happily, love deeply, and laugh and sneeze loudly.
Bela